All for my likeness of putting down my thoughts in words , sometimes I kind of think , do I actually can write , or it is just my self believe in a make wish world that I imagine myself as someone who can put some thoughts to words. Its been a 2 months gone , and I have not written a word this year.All I did was trying to change the template and design, what a waste....Well as always there are immense excuses of laziness and stress in work. It becomes all the more difficult when your work involves with series of negativity and hardly you have anything to do or change in it, just follow the red tape. It becomes all the more taxing when you have nothing and no one to voice your opinions anyway , because you have a bread to earn and a family to feed.
I was reading one of my friends blogs ( the one which I am following ) and was inspired with the thought process and simplicity , yet so extensive use of knowledge and vocabulary. Kudos to him.
Life is strange as I have always said , and yes I have taken an oath that I will not repeat all those stuff again and drive all of you to bore dome, but what remains does remains. I am reading a book about Dalai Lama , and no I am not talking about that book , or any review , but there was a particular statement that caught my eyes. In some paragraph it said , " In reality , most of the times you are required to take a decision between a wrong and a wrong " , it made me thinking , till now I used to believe , there is nothing right or wrong in something relative as life ..now it seems its all wrong ..and nothing right. Does it go back to the ultimate realization that our very own existence is a lie , a wrong itself , and whatever you do thereafter anyway doesn't make it right. I leave my readers ( I actually don't know , does anybody read my blog except my wife??!!!) to decide on that.
I was watching an interesting show that comes on TV MTV Roadies ( I had to watch online here) where they really test a persons patience man..I have never imagined to face that bad an interview ever , its a big stress interview.I feel sorry for the participants , but truly some of them are actually so bloody dumb. God save them.In my last 6 years of interviewing experience , its not that I have not come across any of them ..but on national television..wow !!!
Life has been nice and god has been kind , I am getting my food and places to go ( exactly how on of my another close friend would put it across)...but sometimes I wonder , how do I get enough strength to fight the redundancy that is around me. I sometimes go amazed with the level of myopia people can have, so scared about everything and spineless irritating behavior. I sometimes wonder , in the event of earning the daily bread aren't we not sacrificing our own dignity and self respect. Even I am not spared , I am also one of them , some more , some less may be...but sometimes this really kills me from inside , but alas , what the hell can I do ...I am also a spineless irritating idiot.
In some recent days , there was also certain incidents where I saw how much people can be ungrateful. With all the knowledge and looking at the big picture , withing yourself how can you be so small that you cannot accommodate a simple thank you to tell it to someone...I am dumbstruck.
Talking about the "Big Picture " I remembered , the company I am working for is celebrating 100 years , and people are so gungho about it. There has been teasers , this contest and that contest...and then the Senior Management sends an announcement that we have spend enough , we cannot spend anymore and we need to restrict our spending. Amazing hypocrisy all around , you cannot keep your people happy , or rather I would say, you cannot keep the people on the ground happy ( I am sure people top there must be enjoying big benefits as they can only see the big picture rest cannot even see the picture , leave alone big) and you are dancing about your 100 years. Well as its is said , nothing is free, once a slave , always a slave ..god knows when I can get freedom from this slavery.
I know I am being negative ...but its difficult , that's how and why I started , its all wrong. Can I make it right? No I cannot , as I am also part of the system , I am also a hypocrite , I am also scared , I am spineless , I flow where the money flows , I do not have any opinion of my own , I say what I am told to say and I cannot be myself...ITS ALL WRONG!!! NEED TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THE WRONGS
I was reading one of my friends blogs ( the one which I am following ) and was inspired with the thought process and simplicity , yet so extensive use of knowledge and vocabulary. Kudos to him.
Life is strange as I have always said , and yes I have taken an oath that I will not repeat all those stuff again and drive all of you to bore dome, but what remains does remains. I am reading a book about Dalai Lama , and no I am not talking about that book , or any review , but there was a particular statement that caught my eyes. In some paragraph it said , " In reality , most of the times you are required to take a decision between a wrong and a wrong " , it made me thinking , till now I used to believe , there is nothing right or wrong in something relative as life ..now it seems its all wrong ..and nothing right. Does it go back to the ultimate realization that our very own existence is a lie , a wrong itself , and whatever you do thereafter anyway doesn't make it right. I leave my readers ( I actually don't know , does anybody read my blog except my wife??!!!) to decide on that.
I was watching an interesting show that comes on TV MTV Roadies ( I had to watch online here) where they really test a persons patience man..I have never imagined to face that bad an interview ever , its a big stress interview.I feel sorry for the participants , but truly some of them are actually so bloody dumb. God save them.In my last 6 years of interviewing experience , its not that I have not come across any of them ..but on national television..wow !!!
Life has been nice and god has been kind , I am getting my food and places to go ( exactly how on of my another close friend would put it across)...but sometimes I wonder , how do I get enough strength to fight the redundancy that is around me. I sometimes go amazed with the level of myopia people can have, so scared about everything and spineless irritating behavior. I sometimes wonder , in the event of earning the daily bread aren't we not sacrificing our own dignity and self respect. Even I am not spared , I am also one of them , some more , some less may be...but sometimes this really kills me from inside , but alas , what the hell can I do ...I am also a spineless irritating idiot.
In some recent days , there was also certain incidents where I saw how much people can be ungrateful. With all the knowledge and looking at the big picture , withing yourself how can you be so small that you cannot accommodate a simple thank you to tell it to someone...I am dumbstruck.
Talking about the "Big Picture " I remembered , the company I am working for is celebrating 100 years , and people are so gungho about it. There has been teasers , this contest and that contest...and then the Senior Management sends an announcement that we have spend enough , we cannot spend anymore and we need to restrict our spending. Amazing hypocrisy all around , you cannot keep your people happy , or rather I would say, you cannot keep the people on the ground happy ( I am sure people top there must be enjoying big benefits as they can only see the big picture rest cannot even see the picture , leave alone big) and you are dancing about your 100 years. Well as its is said , nothing is free, once a slave , always a slave ..god knows when I can get freedom from this slavery.
I know I am being negative ...but its difficult , that's how and why I started , its all wrong. Can I make it right? No I cannot , as I am also part of the system , I am also a hypocrite , I am also scared , I am spineless , I flow where the money flows , I do not have any opinion of my own , I say what I am told to say and I cannot be myself...ITS ALL WRONG!!! NEED TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THE WRONGS
2 comments:
Don't really know where to start.. But can tell u for sure that if I receive the notification at least there would be one reader of ur blogs except ur wife.. Secondly I loved the way u've written "Bore Dome" instead of "Boredom" if at all it's unintentional but still "there is no accident."
while I was reading it 2 things struck me..
I read sometime back in one of the books by Richard Bach that the upcoming Messiah when his learning was completed saying "I know what I know and I speak what I speak".. so I'd really wanna see a good soul like u to be saying.. though there are bads and Wrongs among us.. within us. But the major part is that I love Dalai Lama and he's a great teacher and a true prophet no doubt. But there's a inherent difference between the Buddhism (sorry for bringing ou religions here) and Sanatana Dharma. the Buddhism revolves on the path of "How to free yourself from this cycle of life and death and to earch Nirvana or Moksha, and also while living in this world how can one forgo the "SORROW" and overcome the causes of its generation"...
But in Sanatana Dharma it speaks about light, happiness.. it says not only to forgo the sorrow but how to bring "PEACE, HAPPINESS & HARMONY" that's why the God here is "Sat + Chit + Ananda"..Ananda is the one.. So my request to a gr8 soul like u is to forget the pains and being bored.. as it's an illusion and u can surely come out of it..
Sorry for making it a long rebut.. anyway Good night!!!
Thanks man!! for reading it , I expected more comments on my rest of the posts...lol...will have a good time here in malaysia i bet..only thing is that my knowledge is very limited ..so I will be gaining and you will be loosing..
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