Strange thoughts

Ah...it took me 3 months to write again , as some incidents really struck me and made me think , think and think again. The more I kept thinking , the more surprised I got and felt ...Man!!! life is not different , no matter where you are and what you do.

I always had a feel that people are different in different places and have different ways they take on life. Its different no doubt , but when it comes to certain aspects of human temptations, people are same. As somebody had said , sex , power , greed , vengenance bring people together and at same time make them far apart , even kill each other.

In India , I was exposed to a culture where none waited for a while to look up , if you fall , you get kicked harder so that you fall more and others can move ahead leaving you behind. It was like struggle for a slice of bread , when 100 people are trying to eat it. You had to play smart , but there were people who were smarter and they out witted you . You change your strategy , and then move ahead few steps , and then again the whole scenario changes and you seem to be back to square one. You fight with yourself day and night , you fight with your values , wishes, dreams , innocence, and your inner voice to make that inch of impression. Time had made me strong , made me work on my emotions and then there was a time , when nothing affected ...simply NOTHING!!!!.

Then I travelled few thousand miles to a new place. New people , new culture , new way of seeing life, new behavioural patterns....I was happy and was slowly getting into a complacent mode where I thought , all people are not same , you can still find life , you can still find sense of belongingness and brotherhood.But as time passed and then slowly life unfolded itself , in its truest sense. I was taken aback and off guard , suddenly everything seemed to fall apart till I regained myself. My old self which I had kept in the closet for some while, thinking I would not require it here. I started seeing the masks again , and no matter how I try , the masks never revealed its real self , every mask was different , although so same it looked .

I relaized , like I always believed that there is nothing right or wrong in something so relative as life... its just a GAME ....and its upto you how you play it. The game is same , the rules also are same , only your way of approaching it changes...from time to time ...and the more better you play , the more battles you survive. But there is no freedom from it , unless you die.! I was amazed and surprised but now I am more convinced, and I am confident , people accross world are same , the power , the politics and the manipulation all remains same , just the soldiers changes and may be also the king or the king maker.

It was a great lesson learnt again and an education to my deceptive mind , who always doesnt listen to my brain but my heart...